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A bad start of the day by having fever again X.X For the first time, slept for more than 12 hrs straight without waking up in between (: yeah, as usual, got force to head down to LB for annual CNY celebration. Had to show face to my dad’s friend, so no choice! At times, having a dad with so much friends can be a good or problematic. Idk how to describe either. Anyway, my main aim to head down is simple see those kids that I play with them when I’m in sec sch day. Seeing them once a year and looking at the speed they are growing, gosh, time passed too fast I supposed. Some of them changed so much that I take some time to recognized them.

For tomorrow, I hope I could be real focus and complete all my history read up and do half of journal. Aim Must Be Completed !

I recalled yesterday as a happy day cause it’s just a 2 person shopping time at Orchard (: Though we ain’t that close and I thought it might be quite awkward, things turns out pretty fine with us just sharing inform to each other on perfumes, make-up and clothing style. Shop the whole evening away and headed to meet the old bunch once again and talk the night away.

Yes, yesterday made me doubt about you even more. I truly am kind of afraid of you now that I really tried to distanced myself. I really don’t know when your words can be trusted and how long more can I have my attention spare to you. I really hope you understand not everyone is like you, so free to just meet up as and when you want. Sweet talks doesn’t have much effects on me and I will not let it have to them either. I’m not being bad but at times, this is not what we hope to see and it’s only a few weeks long. I appreciate what you did for me and how you helped me pull myself out of that situation that time but I do hope you have a clear mindset of what you doing. That’s the most important after all…

As for school, I did pretty well for my presentation for project research I guess pushing myself harder would be the next aim. I hope I get the motivation.

Can I say this is the best new year I’ve celebrated? Firstly, I drive to wherever I go (: Next, I did my part as a daughter and headed to grandpa place even though I’m alone and for half an hour only. Lastly, I spent it with the same bunch for 2 nights which I didn’t expect cause we just sort things out. Gamble the night away at carpark! & the day ends by driving them back Tiring but worthwhile to sacrifice.

Because I know how to distract myself from thinking about you now. & I wouldn’t have done all these with you by my side.

“The unexpected always comes without your notice.”

The usual CNY routine every year. Visiting, ang bao and dinner. Something unexpected came up; supper with the old friends I should say. Hang over at mun yee’s place for hours and really had a good heart to heart talk. Speak all out, talk about what I’ve been through with him and how my mum thinks now. Really had to thanks the 3 guys who companied me home and walked back on their own at almost 3am, just to take care of my safety of that molester!!! Appreciate it tons. Maybe one day everyone might turn better due to another soon to come talk again <3

I do felt tons of love I’m having now. and I do feel the changes I’m having after 2 months. 

你知道我还想念你吗？一样的歌，在ipod上，真的好难不去想想一下哦。我也不知到为何要让自己那么的辛苦，为何现在还会为了你而流下一两滴的眼泪。有时候，真的有点累了。你知道吗？每个人都告诉我要和你分的撤撤低地，但好难好难呀。心里是很想在于你通个电话但又能说些什么能？要到及时我才能够真的不去想，把你放下。我自己也不知道。

Believe in something you hold on for a long time for, things do changed when the right time arrived. People changed, indeed. Good or bad, as a friend, we had to accept these changes. It’s not a matter of just accepting, but also to adapt to these changes and look at a different angle. Drifting apart is just a word. It’s not a action. No one would drift apart if they just spent a little time here and there, trying to make things different and pull the relationship back.

After all these I went through last year november, I realized that things doesn’t had to be so tough if I could just open up. To accept all that people do changes. To spent that little time asking how everyone’s doing. I love the way things are now. There’s no longer the barer that I always had. Everything feels so great now. And now, I’m only left with 1 big barrier that I need to overcome which I really don’t know how long I would take but, I will constantly try and believe.

Dearest sis and best-est friend. Head down to holland to pass her some stuff before leaving to meet the rest at Timbre. Finally timbre, wasn’t a bad place, when the live band played and atmosphere got a little high. Shall head there again some time when they have live-band (:

Telling things out was the best ideal I supposed. Everyone started to ask and I hope I did cleared those doubt and I’m really being honest earlier on. Every questions was what I expected it to be. A short moment but spent it well. I appreciate everyone who are willing to come down for this gathering. I got nothing much to say except for thanks. I enjoyed those frank talking session & everything tonight. I hope you guys did to.

My two brothers <3

Let me moved quickly please. This area is freaking me out with the molester around the block. I love to hang out late with my friends but with this stupid molester around, I’m just so afraid when walking home. Looking around and taking every steps with cautious. please please please, let him be caught soon la~

Just a call and I will still be there, my dearest,sweetest,kindest,best-est friend (: Misses.

Treated my rainbow to the “1 for 1″ NYDC mudpie and went shopping around at street (: With her along, I sure cut down a lot of clothes that I wanted to buy. haha. My fashion guide who would constantly asked my to change my style or mix and match what I had in my wardrobe. & I can’t wait to move to the same area and asking her to come my place to help me sort of clothing! A short and sweet time for catch up ♥

And yeah, you came back again~ I’m just not good at rejecting people but oh well, since I told myself I will still be there if you needed someone. Just hope, pray and what so ever that you won’t make use of me anymore. & you should understand that we are not any replacement of him.

I think I just stress myself too much from the toilet design. Wanting to aim high isn’t a easy task. another month to go before ITP starts, now, shall rest for a day or 2 before cracking my brain again

The truth still remains. And that is… when I close my eyes all I thought of was your shadow. No matter how tire I am for that day, No matter how much I gave myself work to avoid, once I lie on the bed and prepare to sleep for the night, the shadow would sure be passing by.

I’m trying hard still… If only he’s mine. 

Life seems pretty on track. Nothing goes around my mind except for my essay. The only worries that bothers me will me hesitating if I should go school in the morning. The tireness always overtakes me in the morning causing my whole body to feel ache.

New year is coming so soon. Both glad and dislike for me cause this means my project will be coming the an end for the first part and the horrible part 2 would arrived very soon after new year! Irritating… The only things I’m looking forward now is reunion dinner once again